A soul perspective on life and suicide and how we can grow towards a more compassionate understanding of each person’s journey.

“A WASTED TALENT…”


“Jaymie, you are a wasted talent.” ….A statement from a long-time family friend, (New Zealander) who I reconnected with around 10 years ago. The person’s intentions were well meaning. The statement came from a place of admiration for my artistic talents but also concern. I would be lying if I said these words did not hurt – and they have remained with me to this day.

On reflection, I know this person’s statement was how they were feeling about their own unfulfilled dreams, gifts and potential…I could feel sadness in her words …. A sadness which was hers, not mine.

The energy and symbolism behind her words has been a common thread throughout my life. A thread or belief, which is about “never feeling good enough”….

In our modern world, there is much pressure and expectation to achieve through our mind or body. I’ve touched on this subject several times in earlier posts. In this post, I want to address this growing pressure, which is affecting our young people and what we need to focus on – if we choose a path of healing and transformation.

The fact is, in our modern world people judge success externally, like being “well known” …making a lot of money… owning or accumulating material possessions…. flying here and there around the world…. being physically attractive and fit… or being “driven”, motivated, positive or always busy.

In my own life, the pressure I have felt to achieve and appear perfect on the outside has challenged me to redefine what success really means. In my early twenties, I realised that societies definition of success and perfection would never fit who I truly am and the only way I could find real happiness and fulfilment was to follow the guidance of my own heart and soul.

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We have a choice…we can go left or right…
we can choose a path, accepted by society and others…
or follow our heart – often into the unknown.
On this path, we may be mis-understood and challenged by many
but the rewards are, we grow towards our authenticity,
integrity, creativity, soulful possibilities and fulfilment…

 

OUR GREATEST ”WORK” IS TO HONOUR OUR SOUL JOURNEY
AND GROW TOWARDS BEING OUR TRUE SELF.


Our Soul Journey is a slow but steady process where we increasingly open ourselves to look at the truth in our heart, in our relationships, people and the world around us. In order to grow, we need to be challenged and it is our relationships which provide us with many opportunities to do our inner work.

When we leave this body, we do not take with us our superficial human “goals and achievements” or any of our “materialistic successes”. It’s the energy of who we are and what we share with others, which is most important.

It is not important or possible for everyone to understand us – but it is important that we are being true to our heart. Our Soul Journey is about whether we are living, being, feeling and sharing in harmony with our heart and who we truly are.

 

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FACING AND HEALING GENERATIONAL WOUNDS.


My birth nation, New Zealand has the highest rate of teen suicide in the world – for the second year in a row. The latest Unicef report has NZ towards the bottom of the developed world (38th out of 41 countries) in relation to the health and wellbeing of children and youth.

A long period of selfish, poor and uncompassionate government choices is a justified target or vent for our blame, anger and frustration. But more important for ourselves and the collective consciousness of all New Zealanders (and the world), is if we focus on our own personal healing and shadow work.

Our shadow encompasses everything we do not “like” about ourselves – it is the suppressed, hidden parts of ourselves, which we have never acknowledged but long for our conscious awareness, understanding, truth, love and integration. The more we ignore or suppress our shadow – the more it grows in power and manifests in self- harming, self-destructive patterns. The more we find the courage to openly acknowledge, heal and transform our shadow – the more light and compassion we bring into our relationship with ourselves, others and the world.

 

Healing and transformational changes will not occur
without serious inner work to do with our own personal shadow –
as well as the shadow of the culture/nation we live in…

The generational wounds of a nation or “ancestral wounding”
are where core beliefs about our self-worth,
historical and family trauma are passed on from generation to generation
unless we contribute to healing this through our own inner work.

 

It is the wounded masculine (perfectionism, over-achieving and controlling, unable to express sadness or sorrow, ignorance, stubbornness, rigidity) which overrides, neglects and ridicules the sacred feminine (sensitivity, creativity, feeling, intuition, compassion, gentleness, being and nurturing).

Of course, these are wounds which extend far beyond New Zealand and deep into our modern human history, psyche and collective consciousness. However, the wounded masculine energy is vividly portrayed and often glorified within the New Zealand culture.

Around 14 years ago, a New Zealand male friend of mine committed suicide (aged 23 years old). In his suicide note, he apologised to friends and family saying that he could no longer go on because he was  “so tired”. My friend was a funny, gifted, highly creative, very sensitive and caring soul. In the final years of his life, we both moved to opposite ends of New Zealand and sadly, I lost my once close connection with him. Because of this, I do not wish to assume what was going on in his mind at the time he took his own life.

However, based on my understanding of his difficult past and the trauma he had experienced in his early life – I do believe he was tired of fighting – for his true self – and having to shut himself down – in order to “fit in” to a family  and society that largely excludes and ridicules the softer, feminine qualities, which are more prominent in some men.

My friend was an outsider his whole life in terms of fitting in to the typical Kiwi male “accepted persona”. For those who are unaware, the “harden up, stay staunch” attitude is prolific in New Zealand culture. The conservative Kiwi males do not find it easy to talk about their feelings and emotions. However, what made my friend so unique and special was that he had been through so much in his life – and this meant he had so much sensitivity and compassion to share with others.

Of course, I know that my friend is still with me now and the act of taking his own life – did not mean he “failed”, he was “punished” or that his suicide was the “ultimate sin” (as some religious dogmas would have us believe).

I know that his journey of learning and growth continues and he found relief from “tiredness” after leaving his physical body. I also believe that if he was able to change his mind and move through his internal blockages towards self-healing – the universe (Spirit, God, Creator, Angels – whichever words describe a Higher Power for you) would have staged an intervention and he would not have succeeded in taking his own life.

 

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ONLY THOSE WHO HAVE KNOWN DARKNESS, CAN TRULY APPRECIATE THE LIGHT…


 

A compassionate and courageous leader knows;

– New paths towards light, compassion and transformation
only come through fully experiencing our inner places of darkness and despair.

– There is immense value in our on-going inner work
(truth seeking, personal healing, shadow work and self discovery.)

– Difficulties and challenges viewed from a ‘soul perspective’ enable us to see
– we are each provided with the perfect lessons and opportunities
to grow deeper in love, truth and wisdom on our Soul Journey.

 

Right now, the reality is that New Zealand’s rate for teen suicides (15-19 years old) is the highest of the 41 OECD and EU countries included. In an average week, two young people kill themselves, and about 20 young people are hospitalised for self-harm, (according to Youthline report for 2016).

These statistics tell us that something very serious is being over-looked or hidden. In any culture, country or nation, the youth are our future and therefore the responsibility of all.

Will these young (obviously) sensitive souls who have taken their own lives, awaken people to their own shadow and the shadow wounds of a nation?

The wounded masculine – warrior, aggressive energy – needs the sacred feminine to heal and create a much-needed balance, inner peace, personal self-care and respect, sensitivity to our own and others feelings, love, nurturing, compassion and wholeness.

Perhaps the first step towards healing – is to create better forms of communication and open discussion so that young people can feel safe and supported to express themselves and truly be heard. While suicide is a delicate subject for many people, it should not be closed to discussion and hidden behind shame, self-blame and closed doors.

Are we, the women and men of New Zealand ready to support and encourage these open, supportive, compassionate discussions – after having spent time working on healing and transforming our own shadow?

 

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I THINK IT’S TIME WE RECOGNISE, THE MASCULINE AND FEMININE ENERGIES
EXIST WITHIN EACH ONE OF US.


We are here to learn from each other in relationships so that we can heal, balance and harmonise the masculine and feminine energies within us.

We should be supporting each other on this journey with love, understanding and compassion – especially our youth as they make choices, expand their sense of identity, and find freedom to express their authentic voice in the world.

We all have the potential to be gentle and nurturing. We all can develop our intuitive and compassionate feeling for people, animals and nature. We all have a divine creative spark, which longs to be manifested here on earth – our true potential.

Likewise, we all have the capacity to be strong, while carrying a flame of truth, courage, authenticity and integrity.

Let us be like the moon and the sun…or water and fire…. earth mother and sky father. A divine marriage between the masculine and feminine power – is what creates true harmony, healing, love, creative energy, peace and balance on earth.

 

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Dancing Masculine / Feminine Chestnut Tree – Italian Alps

 

WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT EACH SOUL BEING IS HERE FOR, ON EARTH.
SO THEREFORE, WE SHOULD NOT JUDGE THE PATH OF OTHERS.


Each soul incarnates and re-incarnates on to earth with different lessons to learn. A soul family and country provides the opportunities and challenges (a foundation – a structure) for these lessons to be offered and it is then the free will choice of each soul to complete and fulfil them.

Even if we do not understand the path a young person chooses – it’s not our place to judge or project onto them from our own unfulfilled dreams, expectations and beliefs about life and our own ego-based “ambitions”.

 

Unfortunately, too often,
the subtle, critical comments
are slipping out unconsciously…

It is much easier to project on to others
rather than become conscious of our own
unhealed wounds and shadow.

 

Overtime, these comments build up the voice of our “inner critic” – potentially becoming very destructive to a young person’s self-worth and feeling about their own unique identity and path in life.

Let us be conscious of the impact we have on those around us with our words and projections.

Let us continue to be devoted to our own inner work and Soul Journey, so that we may offer soul wisdom (gained through our own life experiences), compassion and loving support to others.

Let us be the leader and wise friend we ourselves would have loved to know – when we were a young person.

 

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“The past is not a burden;
it is a scaffold which brought us to this day.

We are free to be who we are –
to create our own life
out of our past and out of the present.

We are our ancestors.

When we can heal ourselves, we also heal our ancestors,
our grandmothers, our grandfathers, and our children.

When we heal ourselves, we heal Mother Earth.”

 – Grandmother Rita Pitka Blumenstein

 

Copyright © Jaymie Elder 2017 – Text not to be used unless written permission received from Jaymie Elder. All photography in this post (except male and female Lion): Copyright © Jaymie Elder / Juerg Dreamturtle 2017

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Jaymie Elder is a soul journey guide, artist, writer, photographer and traveller offering intuitive guidance/sessions internationally via Skype. Jaymie is dedicated to supporting others to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being.

“I have spent many years, working through
the generational wounds of the men and women in my family.
During this time, I discovered positive characteristics
but also negative beliefs about my self-worth and my capacity
to create an authentic and fulfilling life from my creative and soul gifts.
I see both the shadow and light portrayed. I’m grateful I chose
my family and New Zealand as my birth country
and for the many opportunities to heal and grow deeper on my Soul Journey.

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Soul work needs no approval or recognition from others

“Your work is not to drag the world into a new awareness, kicking and screaming.
Your work is to simply do your work, sacredly, secretly and silently
And those with “eyes to see” and “ears to hear” will respond….”
– Unknown


Recently, I have been spending time alone in the beautiful spring nature of the European Alps. Almost as soon as we arrived, I found myself drawn to the alpine wild flowers, abundant, lively bees and colourful hives around me…

 

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So what is the message of the bee? 

Above all, bee shows us devotion towards a higher purpose and the magical interconnectedness in all of life. Bee is completely devoted to work for the common good of the hive.

This can mirror the commitment we make to our own soul work – the on-going work of healing, transforming, learning and growing towards our higher purpose – Higher Self or spiritual potential.

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“Ultimately, this devotion to our soul work
is the greatest service we offer humanity.
When we raise our vibration through healing  
and transforming our core wounds (our shadow)

– we influence the greater consciousness

of humanity and all of creation.”

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Find that hard to believe? Over many years, I have observed that my own inner work has extended out to influence those around me in subtle ways – family, animals, partnerships, friends or strangers.

Our soul journey of healing and transformation, is unique to each one of us. As we continue on this journey, we can increasingly recognise the value of our inner work. This work does not require the approval or recognition of others! Perhaps this is the most liberating part about our soul work! …No one else in this world has felt, lived, seen, touched the same experiences as each one of us…No one else walks the same path to know and feel their own divinity – their own Higher Self or spiritual essence.


How can we integrate the wisdom of the bee into our own lives
and for our own Soul Journey?

The bee is also a symbol for soul wisdom. Bee collects pollen from many flowers and turns it into nourishing honey – the gold of bees. Just so, we collect experiences from the many circumstances of our life – painful, loving, challenging and beautiful…and from these experiences we can extract spiritual gold.

This spiritual gold is a result of our willingness and courage to be honest and true to ourselves,… to feel deeply into our own wounds – our own patterns, beliefs, masks and shadow personalities – all of which long for the light of our conscious awareness, understanding, love, forgiveness and compassion.

 

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Are we devoted to our path of healing (soul work)?

In today’s busy world, it is so easy to distract ourselves from facing and owning how we are truly feeling.

Just like any form of addiction, we can use social media to instantly distract ourselves from our emotions and feelings. Spending hours online, we can get lost amongst endless information, music, videos, nice photographs, “what we want to see” in order to “feel better“. Or, we may take the anger, frustration or helplessness we feel and project huge amounts of energy into endless arguments with people whom we may never meet in person.

The truth is, the emotions and patterns will always re-surface again and again until we are ready to look at the truth in ourselves. We can try, but in the end we can not hide from the truth. Eventually, when we are ready, our soul calls to us, ….loud enough so that we must pay attention.

We grow in love by having the courage to face what is NOT love in us and being honest with ourselves and others. It is simple to write about but not easy to practise in all of our relationships.

When we are ready and open to begin our deeper soul work, it is so important we can feel safe, nurtured and supported by a non-judgemental friend, councellor, elder, spiritual guide etc.


Let us begin today, in small ways…
those with “eyes to see” and “ears to hear” will respond….

Let us practise being devoted and humble like the bee. Let us start today, in small ways,…becoming more present with our emotions, feelings and allowing our heart to guide us in all our actions.

The more we are practising this in our everyday lives, the more we realise that it is our energy that draws people and experiences to us. Rather than judge the experiences as good or bad / right or wrong, we trust and know that somewhere, somehow…. it is for the highest good of our souls evolution.

With an open mind and heart, we can ask for our own inner guidance to come forward….we delve deeper for the hidden (shadow) learning, messages and wisdom about our own life and journey, which can be reflected back to us through another person, experience or encounter. This is the way of the spiritual alchemist – the humble yet extraordinary bee – collecting pollen (experience) and transforming it into honey (wisdom).

This does not mean we over-analyse situations, experiences and people with our mind. We are inviting the wise, intuitive, feminine or feeling part of our being to come forward and help us to understand, transform, heal and grow.

When we look outside for recognition, rewards or approval for our actions our focus is mis-directed. With humility and devotion like the bee, we know that no matter what the outcome, we must keep moving forward on our journey.

The more we are being authentically who we are, (less concerned about what others think or say about us or trying to “prove” something to others)…we are vibrating (buzzing 🙂 ) in our core essence. We are touching others with our energy, dispersing seeds of consciousness, love and truth – meanwhile, always continuing with our own soul work.

This is truly the highest we can be.

Copyright 2017 © Jaymie Elder

 

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Bee Prayer: Winged spirit of sweetness,
I call on you.
Teach me the ways of
Transformation and fertilisation,
The path from pollen to sweetness honey.
Teach me to taste the essence
Of each place I alight,
Carrying that essence with me
To continue creation’s cycle.
Teach me the ways of hope,
Reminding me that what seems impossible
May yet be achieved.
Flitting tears of the gods,
Draw me ever closer to the wisdom
Hidden within beauty.
Give me flight and sunlight,
Passion and productivity,
Cooperation with those around me
And sharpened strength to defend my home.
May I ever spiral out from my heart,
Searching for what I need,
And return there once again
To turn those lessons into nourishment.
Bee spirit, I call you.
Source: Animal Totem


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Jaymie Elder is a soul journey guide, artist, photographer and traveller offering intuitive guidance/sessions internationally via Skype. Jaymie is dedicated to supporting others to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being. Learn more about Jaymie and her work here.

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The Journey of the Soul is not about looking pretty….

The most adventurous journey to embark on; is the journey to yourself,
the most exciting thing to discover; is who you really are,
the most treasured pieces that you can find; are all the pieces of you,
the most special portrait you can recognize; is the portrait of your soul.
– Unknown

If we only think of ourselves and each other in terms of our dense, physical human bodies, life can be incredibly limiting.

By this, I do not mean the over-used New Age cliché – “We are already love and light” – therefore we do not have to look within and work with our own shit (shadow)! 🙂

What I mean is, mainstream society forces us to be overly focused on external appearances – looking pretty, material wealth, achieving results… all of which mean absolutely nothing to the soul.

Get to know the soul being you are…the wise, ancient being inside of you, which is eternal, compassionate, honest and true.

Soul work will always challenge us to go deeper – to remove our false masks, limiting beliefs and above all, be honest and true to ourselves and others.

We cannot get to know our soul unless we are prepared to crack open our protective shell and allow the light of truth to illuminate our shadow (our wounds).

The journey of the soul is having the courage to face our wounds, heal and embrace the depth of our being – every moment… so that we may continue to grow towards self-awareness, authenticity, compassion and soul wisdom.

The featured image for this post is a photograph I took of an ancient Holm Oak Tree in the Madonie National Park, Sicily. Every time I am in this Park, I connect with a different tree. Many of the Holm Oaks are between 500 to 800 years old. This tree with its huge crack in the centre of the trunk was obviously struck by lightning – perhaps hundreds of years ago?

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What struck me 🙂 was that although the inner trunk was blackened by the fire and completely hollow,… the tree was still incredibly strong, healthy, huge, majestic and wise.

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For me, this majestic being is a celebration and reflection of the Journey of the Soul.

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All photographs and text Copyright © Jaymie Elder 2017

My soul connection with Claude Monet and my Grandmother – by Jaymie Elder

Many of us feel a deep connection to Artists who have influenced and inspired humanity throughout history.

Ever since I began journeying with Juerg 12 years ago, we have practised being open to allow our intuition to guide us to places and people, which resonate with our heart and soul. During several campervan journeys in France, Juerg and I had the opportunity to connect with many of the great Impressionist Painters – in particular, Claude Monet. These connections happened spontaneously over a period of about 2 months. It felt like we were guided to many locations, which were important for his life and work.

Impressionism developed in Paris in the 1860s. Its influence spread throughout Europe and eventually the United States. The Impressionist Artists rejected the fine finish and detail to which most artists of their day aspired. Instead, they aimed to capture the momentary, sensory effect of a scene – the effects of light, the passage of time, changes in weather and other shifts in the atmosphere. To achieve these effects, many Impressionist Artists moved away from the studio to the streets and countryside, painting en plein air (outdoors).

Many consider Claude Monet to be the founding Father of Impressionism. The term Impressionism derived from a painting by Claude Monet – a view of the port of Le Havre in the mist – “Impression, Sunrise” 1872.

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“During dawn, day, dusk, and dark and from varying viewpoints, some from the water itself and others from a hotel room looking down over the port….They asked me for a title for the catalogue, it couldn’t really be taken for a view of Le Havre, and I said: ‘Put Impression.” – Claude Monet

As from my early teens, Claude Monet’s tranquil garden and beautiful paintings have fascinated me. This was thanks to the influence and admiration of his work by my Grandmother who is a well-known artist and gardener in New Zealand – now over 90 years old.

For a long time, it has been a dream of mine to visit Claude Monet’s home and garden in Giverny, France. Two years ago, this dream became a reality.

1 (3)Monet’s Lilly Pond, Giverny, France, June 2015

While visiting Monet’s home and garden and travelling along the Normandy Coast to many of the places where he lived and painted – I felt a connection to my grandmother, far greater and more powerful than I have ever experienced in my life. (Physically, I was 19,159km away from her!)

The relationship I have with my Grandmother has enabled me to experience the depth and magic of an energetic, spiritual connection, which transcends time, distance and space.

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Journey to the Birth Place of Impressionism – Normandy Coast


After visiting Claude Monet’s beautiful garden in Giverny, Juerg and I spent 3 weeks travelling the Normandy Coast in our campervan. Monet grew up in the major port city of Le Havre. The sea was a constant background of his whole childhood, and it is said that he spent more time roaming the beaches than in the classroom.

“It was at home I learned the little I know. Schools always appeared to me like a prison, and never could I make up my mind to stay there, not even for four hours a day, when the sunshine was inviting, the sea smooth, and when it was joy to run about the cliffs in the free air, or to paddle in the water.” – Claude Monet

During the 1880s, Monet rediscovered the Normandy coast and made repeated visits there to draw by the sea. He was attracted to the dramatic cliffs and unique rock arches.

One of my most memorable experiences on the Normandy Coast happened only thanks to an argument I had with Juerg! (everything happens for a reason!…) 😊 Feeling emotional and annoyed, I went for what turned out to be an inspiring and magical walk on my own. Within about half an hour of walking, I found myself on top of a huge cliff overlooking an historic church and a beautiful, wild ocean scene.

On my walk, I was surprised to find signposts describing details about the early years of Monet’s life spent on the Normandy Coast, as well as displaying several paintings he created of the ocean and coastal scenery. Monet created close to 100 paintings along this coastal area and often he would return numerous times to the same scene, until a painting was completed.

My tranquil walk offered a beautiful and intimate soul connection with a man both myself and my Grandmother were so inspired by. Standing alone on top of the cliff, with no one else around, I experienced a timeless and expansive sense of the feelings and emotions, which Monet had captured in so many of his paintings.

Cliff-Walk-at-Pourville-monet-1024x772“Cliff walk at Pourville.” 1882. Art Institute of Chicago.

When I finally returned to our campervan, I wanted to surprise Juerg. I suggested he follow me on the walk to experience what I had discovered in a similar, spontaneous way.

Together, we followed another path past a small herd of content goats and down towards the beach. We found more signposts displaying paintings, which Monet had created of the beautiful coastal scenery we were witnessing.

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What followed this experience, was more fluid moments of synchronicity as we “happened” to arrive in many special places, scenes, and villages where Monet had produced some of his earliest impressionist paintings.

Rapid brushwork and vibrant colours display images of sky, cliffs, sea and beach, which have become some of the most memorable and popular images in Impressionist art.

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Night-spot at Fecamp, Normandy Coast, June 2015

“Staying in Fecamp in 1881, Monet brought back 22 canvases, capturing sometimes the cliff tops, sometimes the sea. The beach is deserted, with not a human figure in sight, giving way to a scattering of rocks that disappear into the waves frothing at the shore. Painted using large, vertical brushstrokes, the cliff top is saturated with light from the sky and sea, composed of yellows, blues, and oranges. In the distance, the bolder green hue of the deep water sets off the sparkling line of the horizon.” (Information found at the site where Monet Painted -“Fecamp, Bord de Mer.”)

Later, our journey lead us to the Art Museum Le Havre, which houses major Impressionist paintings from such artists as Claude Monet, Auguste Renoir, Alfred Sisley, Camille Pisarro and Eugene Boudin. Museum Le Havre is known as France’s best museum of Impressionist paintings after the Musée d’Orsay in Paris.

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The whole experience of many spontaneous, synchronistic and magical moments made me feel as if my Grandmother and Monet were there with me and guiding us on our journey. I gained a much deeper appreciation for the beauty of his work – especially the colour and light he portrayed based on the landscapes he knew so well. Monet was fascinated with the changing effects of light in nature.

“For me, a landscape does not exist in its own right, since its appearance changes at every moment; but the surrounding atmosphere brings it to life – the light and the air which vary continually. For me, it is only the surrounding atmosphere, which gives subjects their true value.” – Claude Monet

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More than a Grandmother…


grandmaMy Grandmother – Joan Elder – in her Garden in New Zealand (several years ago now).

Growing up in New Zealand, I was very inspired my Grandmother’s passion for painting. My Grandmother loved to be outdoors – painting or sketching in nature. Some of her subjects included rural farm scenery with early pioneer cottages from our region. More often, she painted plants, flowers, trees, pathways and picturesque, tranquil scenes from her own garden. Sometimes, we went on painting and drawing excursions together. However, it was only after my experiences in France that I began to appreciate why my Grandmother was inspired all her life by the work of Claude Monet – both his paintings and amazing garden.

Throughout my life and especially in my early 20’s, I cherished the company of my grandmother in the sanctuary of her garden. Her beautiful garden was well known and often visited by garden enthusiasts from both New Zealand and overseas.

There were many times that I felt she was the only person in the world who would truly listen. She was not only a grandmother, but a wise friend and honest, sincere companion. My grandmother and I shared many magical times together and I remember always leaving her garden with a bunch of beautiful flowers, herbs and a lighter, brighter feeling in my heart.

Looking back, I know it was her devotion, humility and gratitude for the small things, which made her simple life connected to nature so rich, self-sustaining and rewarding.

My grandmother always told me to follow my heart and that it did not matter what anyone thought of the decisions and choices I made. She helped me to see that many people may not understand my journey, but the most important was that I was happy with my choices and true to my heart.

1 (21)Rhododedron’s, My Grandmother’s Garden

During my life away from New Zealand, I would often phone my grandmother and she would say to me, “Jaymie, I’ve just been thinking of you!”. She would also say this whenever a letter arrived in her mailbox from me. When I call her on the phone from Europe, she always says that I sound so close, like I am in her next bedroom. 🙂 Today, I may not be in contact with her as much as I would like to, but I know and feel that when I am thinking of her, she is feeling it and likewise thinking of me too.

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We are infinite, spiritual beings


We are infinite, multi-dimensional beings experiencing life though a physical earth-form. When we fully embrace our spiritual being, we know and feel we are NOT limited by time, space or our physical bodies. When we think of someone, we feel love in our heart chakra and this energy instantly reaches the soul of the person we are connecting with.

In my early twenties, I learnt about distance and energy healing through Reiki courses. However, it is only now thanks to my own experiences and journey, that I understand what this means on a much deeper level. There is so much more to our being and our world, which we do not see with our eyes and cannot grasp with our limited human understanding.

For the past 16 years, I have been on a journey to reclaim and heal the part of myself, which I call my innocent child. She is the free spirit within me that was and still is very connected to Nature. My innocent child believes, feels and sees magic and wonder – all around her. It is through her that I experience a world interconnected by a divine, creative force.

jmeMe, 9 years old “Gypsie Fortune Teller” (“Book Character Day” at my primary school)

I am grateful for the teachers in my life (my grandmother, Juerg) and many others who have helped me on this journey of reclaiming, healing, learning and growing. I have realised on my journey that sometimes a soul family member can help us the most by NOT “being there” for us, either physically or emotionally. This is because we are then forced to dig deeper within ourselves to understand the true origin of our pain and longing. It is through our inner work of healing, understanding and personal growth we can connect more deeply with our spiritual essence, our true self, and the love and wisdom in all of creation.

At some stage, we come to realise it is “thanks” to the people who “left” and “hurt” us that we have embarked on the journey to reconnect with the deepest part of ourselves – our soul, spirit being and our true, creative and divine purpose.

“It is on the strength of observation and reflection, that one finds a way. So, we must dig and delve unceasingly.” – Claude Monet

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Claude Monet – Final years – 1916-26


In Monet’s final years, he increasingly suffered from cataracts. He was often fearful of becoming completely blind. It became harder for him to work outside, so instead he built a large studio on his property in Giverny and began to paint the vast, abstract canvases known as “The Grand Decorations”. These masterpieces are 91 meters long (almost 300 feet long). They are two meters high, which is as high as Monet could paint when he stood. Two rooms were eventually necessary to accommodate them and they took him close to 10 years to complete.

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“Monet reversed the laws of the universe, a new way of seeing the world, the infinitely small and the infinitely large, the boundless depth and space of the earth reflected in a pond with only his brush and remembered light and colour.” (“Monet’s Garden in Giverny, inventing the landscape.”)

Monet died of lung cancer on 5 December 1926, at the age of 86. Monet’s home, garden, and waterlily pond were bequeathed by his son Michel, his only heir, to the French Academy of Fine Arts in 1966.

Through the Fondation Claude Monet, the house and gardens were opened for visits in 1980, following restoration. The house and garden, along with the Museum of Impressionism, are major attractions in Giverny, which hosts some 500 000 visitors each year during the open season of seven months.

DSCF0817Entrance to Monet’s Home, Giverny, France (June 2015)

My soul connection with my grandmother and Monet will continue to inspire me on my journey. One day, I would love to visit the massive Impressionist paintings of waterlilies, known as the Grand Decorations, in the Musée de l’Orangerie in Paris. Time will tell if this dream will become a reality!

The purpose of this post is not only to share my experiences of connection between Claude Monet and my Grandmother. I wish to encourage others to dream, open, be inspired and follow their own soul guidance, especially if that means reconnecting with an Artist, Writer, Actor, Musician, Philosopher (or any person who has made a positive and profound impact on humanities consciousness). Any time we feel real love or passion for an Artist, there is something important trying to be made conscious in regards to our own soul journey.

“Everyone discusses my art and pretends to understand, as if it were necessary to understand, when it is simply necessary to love.” – Claude Monet

apc“Matin” *troisième panneau* (“Morning” *third Panel*) Claude Monet 1920-26 Musée de l’Orangerie, Paris

(Photographs featured in this post – Copyright © Jaymie Elder and Juerg Dreamturtle 2017)


Jaymie Elder is a soul journey guide, artist, photographer and traveller offering intuitive guidance/sessions internationally via Skype. Jaymie is dedicated to supporting others to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being. Learn more about Jaymie and her work here.

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Only your heart and soul can guide you to the truth.

Too often, we accept information presented to us as the truth, with no effort to ask any honest, critical, or introspective questions. We’ve become so blinded by outer “nicely packaged” forms of deception – especially, by people we see as having authority, power or “more knowledge” than us.

In the age of information, we are increasingly impatient. We cry; “oh yes, I like this or that” but only  because it “looks” or “sounds” good (on the surface). Our impatience will lead us away from the truth – every time. Our inability to sit with the discomfort and challenge of “not knowing” will prevent us from any real discernment – and the clarity and perceptiveness of our heart/soul knowing. Our fear of rejection from others will keep us bound to comfortable yet restricted ways of viewing ourselves, each-other and the world.

When presented with new information about any person or any subject, drop into your feeling heart space…how does it feel in your solar plexus (stomach area)? What does your heart say to you? If something I read or see in a person does not feel right to me, I try to sit with the discomfort and inner conflict… I believe it’s an internal space, we all need to feel, with patience, humility and finally relinquishing our need to “know”, to be right or be in control.

When I have questions about any person or subject, I ask my soul being for answers. I allow the wisdom of my heart to guide me. I trust and know these answers can be revealed to me in many different and sometimes completely irrational ways, i.e. through reading an article (which pops up unexpectedly, but in perfect synchronicity while browsing online) or sharing a conversation with a stranger, friend, a child, an animal, mountain, rock, plant or tree.

Because I believe that a spirit moves through all of life, I know that ALL beings can be my teacher (if I am willing and open to listen). Of course, this is nothing revolutionary. It is a return to the ancient feminine way of right brain, feeling, intuitive or yin-being. It is the power of the feminine principal, which indigenous people and shamanic cultures around the world have practised daily as a deeply interconnected and balanced way of life.

Above all, I have learnt that being able to see and feel the truth in people and in the world, is an internal process of removing the veils of illusion in myself first (i.e. my past wounded beliefs, which I cling to out of fear and a need for control to feel safe and “accepted”). I also try to allow space for new information to come in, because I do not agree with staying “fixed” or inflexible to soul growth and expansion.

I feel grateful to be journeying with a partner who challenges me, every day, to see and feel the truth both in myself, in people and in the world. Juerg is not afraid to call out my shadow, my own false illusions, beliefs and self-deceptions. In doing so, he offers me the opportunity to grow from a limited human understanding – to see and feel more clearly and deeper from my feeling heart and infinite soul being.

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“The great enemy of truth is very often not the lie – deliberate, contrived and dishonest – but the myth – persistent, persuasive and unrealistic. Too often we hold fast to the clichés of our forebears. We subject all facts to a prefabricated set of interpretations. We enjoy the comfort of opinion without the discomfort of thought.” John F. Kennedy


Copyright © 2017 Jaymie Elder

A message for the Soul, at the oldest tree in Europe.

 

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“Castagno dei Cento Cavalli” – Jean-Pierre Houël (1776-1779)

Known as the 100 Horse Chestnut Tree, (“Castagne de Cento Cavalli”), the ancient tree is considered to be between 2000 and 4000 years old. It is the oldest tree in Europe and the oldest Chestnut Tree in the world. The Tree lives on Mount Etna in Sicily, which is the most active volcano in Europe. The Tree has survived several earthquakes, (which have devastated cities along the east coast of the Island), volcanic eruptions, as well as seen the rise and fall of numerous ancient cultures, over thousands of years.

The name “Castagno de cento Cavalli” (Chestnut Tree of 100 horses) derives from a traditional story in which a queen of Aragon and her company of one hundred knights, during a trip to Mount Etna, were caught in a severe thunderstorm. The Queen and her horsemen all took shelter under the tree.

We visited the tree in winter, just as spring is about to arrive here in Sicily. The advantage of this, was to see the structure of the ancient trunk and the beauty of the trees form because there was no foliage.

 

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A Message for the Soul

My message and personal story is intended to inspire us to see, feel and think beyond our physical human form to the soul being we are. What does our soul long for? How can we take advantage of this transformational time on the earth, and embrace on our Souls Journey? Can we begin to align ourselves with our soul purpose? Are we honouring our unique talents and gifts we were born to share?

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“When I create my music, I feel like an instrument of nature.
I wonder what delight nature must feel, when we open our hearts
and express our god given talents….

the sound of approval arose across the universe
and the whole world abounds in magic, wonder fills our hearts
for what we have glimpsed for an instant,
the playfulness of life…”

Michael Jackson

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There is a harmony, a rhythm in all of creation which we are a part of. It is through acknowledging, feeling our soul being and the soul in all of nature, that we come back into our heart centre. As we honour our truth and progress on this Soul Journey, our energy and time is focused less on short term, superficial or materialistic desires and ambitions. We are more open to feel and see the magic and wonder, which surrounds us. We are more present to each moment and conscious of how we can be of service to humanity, all of life and Mother Earth.

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“Cento Cavalli” A new born, abandoned puppy I found under the 100 Horse Chestnut Tree.
Juerg and I are taking care of Cento Cavalli and after 10 days, he is doing very well.


Video: Message for the Soul, at the Oldest Tree in Europe (6mins)


My work is about supporting others through personal sessions to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being. I also love to support people to connect with the magic and beauty of nature, through my paintings and photographs.

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Working with our shadow in a Soul Relationship by Jaymie Elder

Everybody wants a loving relationship,… but few people are really open or prepared for the ongoing commitment and challenge of shadow work i.e. to take full responsibility for our own projections, inner wounds and personal healing.

Relationships are so important because the deeper we are connected to someone physically, emotionally and spiritually – the greater the opportunity or catalyst for healing our inner child and transforming our core wounds.

Without this awareness, we may continue to protect or react from our wounds (hurt inner child) through becoming defensive, angry and blaming others, shutting down or avoiding intimacy altogether.

If we pretend that everything is wonderful and perfect on the outside, we deny ourselves the sacred opportunity to work with the truth – the unpleasant emotions that get triggered in us. It is only through acknowledging that our shadow/wounds exist, that we can begin to grow towards being more authentic and truthful with ourselves and others.

The truth is, we need relationships to trigger the wounds we have protected and tried to bury deep within our unconscious. As children, we developed unhealthy patterns and behaviors to survive our family and societies circumstances. However, as adults we have a responsibility to consciously work with our history, our family story, our inner child, so that we do not continue to pass on our unhealed past and wounds.

Our soul acts like a magnet to attract the perfect partner and circumstances for healing and transformation to occur. As we work with the opportunities a soul partner offers us to heal and grow, we can embrace our shadow with love, forgiveness and soul understanding. As we continue with this work, we open ourselves towards a deeper capacity to feel and share love.

The most important relationship we will encounter in our life is with ourselves, first! If we can not be honest to ourselves, how can we be honest with another? In a nurturing and loving relationship with the Self, we acknowledge our shadow in a way that we do not critise or judge ourselves harshly. We understand its purpose for being there – so that we may grow.

In an honest, conscious relationship both partners know that we touch each other’s wounds – and therefore the relationship can offer us a powerful tool for healing, growth and transformation.

It is of course always our choice how deep we wish to go and how much we wish to face, transform and heal on our own journey.

The true gift and fulfilment of journeying with someone who is open for all of this – someone who also has a good sense of humour, sensitivity, honesty and capacity to love – is the solidity, strength and union you build overtime within yourself AND together as a couple.

Jaymie Elder, December 2016

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Jaymie Elder and Juerg Dreamturtle, Sicily, December 2016

My work is to support people on their soul journey. I am dedicated to my own personal healing and shadow work in a relationship with Juerg Dreamturtle (we have been journeying, travelling, creating and doing this healing/shadow work together for 11 years).

We do not pretend to be perfect because we know we can always continue to heal and grow more. Juerg and I share a core belief that our inner work of healing and growing is the most important, beneficial part of our journey we can devote ourselves to in this life…not only for ourselves and our relationship, but for all people and Mother Earth.

Both Juerg and I offer support for individuals/couples through personal sessions. Sessions are available internationally via skype.

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Featured photo for this post: Sacred Journey, Portugal 2014,

Copyright Jaymie Elder and Juerg Dreamturtle 2016.

The Soul Purpose of our Journey

Do we wish to grow towards being our authentic self,… or continue to be pressured to “achieve” based on the values and expectations of other people and society?

In today’s world, there is much pressure to conform and achieve according to the standards of other people and society. Success is seen as; “being driven”, going places, “looking good”, “getting ahead”, accumulating status, popularity or material possessions.

Are we being true to our heart? Are we sharing the true essence of who we are? Despite our self-doubts and vulnerabilities, do we find the courage to keep moving forward and into the unknown? Is the life we live a reflection of our own gifts, talents, and creative expression? Are we sincerely devoted to our path of healing and growing?

Mainstream society does not encourage self-reflection and completely neglects the inner journey of discovering who we are, embodying our unique, creative potential and a sense of purpose for our life.

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