A soul perspective on life and suicide.

“This post was originally created 3 years ago. After sharing it amongst friends on social media, I received many heartfelt comments and messages. I am a New Zealand female living and traveling overseas. My ancestral lineage originates from Scotland and England but my family roots are bound closely with the land, rivers, ocean and mountains surrounding North Otago and Central Otago, New Zealand. As in all my posts, I draw from my own personal life experiences and inner knowing. I share my perspective on how we may grow towards a more compassionate understanding of each person’s journey in life. I do not pretend to have all the answers or to proclaim myself an expert in suicide prevention because I have learned each person’s healing journey, set of life challenges, cultural and ancestral wounding are unique and very personal. However, I do firmly believe the greatest gifts we can share with others on their life path are the experiences, compassion, wisdom and learning gained – from our own life’s journey. Please feel free to share your comments and feedback or send this post to anyone you feel could benefit from reading it.” – Jaymie Elder 20/11/2019

“A WASTED TALENT…”

“Jaymie, you are a wasted talent.” …. A statement from a family friend, who I reconnected with around 10 years ago. The person’s intentions were well-meaning. The statement came from a place of admiration for my artistic talents but also a concern.

Afterward, I remember doing some processing around our conversation and I knew then that the statement was a projection and therefore had less to do with me and more to do with the person’s feelings and life experiences. After many years of walking my own personal healing and spiritual path, I was living together with my soulmate in his home in a beautiful part of New Zealand and I was truly feeling happy and content in my life. However, I would be lying if I said these words did not trigger hurt from my past – and they have remained with me to this day.

The energy and symbolism behind these words have been a common thread throughout my life. A thread or belief, which is about “never feeling good enough”….which then leads into a deeper feeling of shame.

In our modern world, there is much pressure and expectation to achieve through our mind or body. I’ve touched on this subject several times in earlier posts. In this post, I want to address this growing pressure, which is affecting our young people and what we need to focus on – if we choose a path of healing and transformation.

The fact is, in our modern world people judge success externally, like being “well known” …making a lot of money… owning or accumulating material possessions…. youtube and social media popularity,… flying here and there around the world… being physically attractive and fit… or being “driven”, motivated, positive or always “busy”.

In my own life, the pressure I have felt to achieve and appear perfect on the outside has challenged me to redefine what success really means. In my early twenties, I realised that society’s definition of success and perfection would never fit who I truly am and the only way I could find real happiness and fulfillment was to follow the guidance of my own heart and soul.

On reflection, I see that from the “outside” the choices I made and the path I forged and created for myself may have appeared irrational, unconventional, obscure and unplanned to some people. However, as I began to view my life choices more from the “inside” and less how others and society perceived me, I came to realise that the most important was that I listened to my own intuition and followed my heart and soul. I now know that this way never demonstrates a carefully-calculated-straightpath because it is open to flow and spontaneously change as we grow to become more authentically who we are.

snailgrass


We have a choice…
we can choose a path, accepted by society and others…
or follow our heart – often into the unknown.
On this path, we may be misunderstood and challenged by many
but the rewards are, we grow towards our authenticity,
integrity, creativity, soulful possibilities and fulfillment…

 

OUR GREATEST ”WORK” IS TO HONOUR OUR SOUL JOURNEY
AND GROW TOWARDS BEING OUR TRUE SELF.


Our Soul Journey is a slow but steady process where we increasingly open ourselves to look at the truth in our hearts, in our relationships, people and the world around us. To grow, we need to be challenged and it is our relationships that provide us with many opportunities to do our inner work.

When we leave this body, we do not take with us our superficial human “goals and achievements” or any of our “materialistic successes”. It’s the energy of who we are and what we share with others, which is most important.

In life, it is not important or possible for everyone to understand us – but it is important we are being true to our hearts. Only WE can know what that means, what it looks like or how it feels! This is not information we are given freely in school! However, it’s what our journey in life will show us through our own challenges and experiences.

Our Soul Journey is about whether we are
living, being, feeling and sharing
in harmony with our heart and who we truly are.

10818328_629438863848686_997783028348777591_o

HEALING OUR GENERATIONAL WOUNDS.


My birth nation, New Zealand has the highest rate of teen suicide in the world. The 2017 Unicef report had NZ towards the bottom of the developed world (38th out of 41 countries) in relation to the health and wellbeing of children and youth.

A long period of poor, non-compassionate government policy is a justified target for our anger and frustration. But more important for ourselves and the collective consciousness of all New Zealanders (and the world), is if we each focus on our own personal healing and shadow work.

Our shadow encompasses everything we do not “like” about ourselves – it is the suppressed, hidden parts of ourselves, which we have never acknowledged but long for our conscious awareness, understanding, truth, love and integration. The more we ignore or suppress our shadow – the more it grows in power and can manifest in self- harming, destructive patterns. The more we find the courage to openly acknowledge, heal and transform our shadow – the more light and compassion we bring into our relationship with ourselves, others and the world.

Healing and transformational changes will not occur
without serious inner work to do with our own personal shadow –
as well as the shadow of the culture/nation we live in…

The generational wounds of a nation or “ancestral wounding”
are where core beliefs about our self-worth,
historical and family trauma are passed on from generation to generation
unless we contribute to healing this through our own inner work.

It is the wounded masculine (perfectionism, over-achieving and controlling, unable to express sadness, vulnerability or sorrow, ignorance, stubbornness, rigidity) which overrides, neglects and ridicules the sacred feminine (sensitivity, creativity, feeling, intuition, compassion, gentleness, being and nurturing).

Of course, these are wounds that extend far beyond New Zealand and deep into our modern human history, psyche and collective consciousness. However, the wounded masculine energy is vividly portrayed and often glorified within the New Zealand culture. For those who are unaware, the “harden up, stay staunch” attitude is prolific amongst many men in New Zealand. From a young age, watching the Alblacks “haka” on television, boys can be conditioned to conform to a particular “mould”. While attitudes are now beginning to change through awareness and new leaders coming to the fore, in the past and still in many cases today, expressing emotions like sadness and despair, can be judged as a sign of weakness.

Around 14 years ago, a New Zealand male friend of mine committed suicide (aged 23 years old). In his suicide note, he apologised to friends and family saying that he could no longer go on because he was  “so tired”. My friend was a funny, gifted, highly creative, very sensitive and caring soul. In the final years of his life, we both moved to opposite ends of New Zealand and sadly, I lost my once close connection with him. Because of this, I do not wish to assume what was going on in his mind at the time he took his own life.

However, based on my understanding of his difficult past and the trauma he had experienced in his early life – I do believe he was tired of fighting – for his true self – and having to shut himself down – in order to “fit in” or function in society that largely excludes and ridicules the softer, feminine qualities, which are more prominent in some men.

My friend was an outsider his whole life in terms of fitting into the typical Kiwi male “accepted persona”. The conservative Kiwi males do not find it easy to talk about their feelings and emotions. However, what made my friend so unique and special was that he had been through so much in his life – but he had not closed his heart – he remained a very feeling person, with so much sensitivity and compassion to share with others.

Of course, I know that my friend is still with me now and the act of taking his own life – did not mean he “failed”, he was “punished” or that his suicide was the “ultimate sin” (as some religious dogmas would have us believe).

I know that his journey of learning and growth continues and he found relief from “tiredness” after leaving his physical body. I also believe that if he was able to change his mind and move through his internal blockages towards self-healing – the universe (Spirit, God, Creator, Angels – whichever words describe a Higher Power for you) would have staged an intervention and he would not have succeeded in taking his own life.

juergsun


ONLY THOSE WHO HAVE KNOWN DARKNESS,…
CAN TRULY APPRECIATE THE LIGHT…



“Human nature is constructed in such a way,
that you end up learning much more from a life of suffering
than from a life of ease. That does not mean that I recommend
a quest for suffering or anything like that.
But this is what I want. To make people understand:
you can always pick yourself up again.
It’s always worth it starting from zero again, once, or a thousand times,
as long as you’re still alive. That’s the biggest lesson in life.
In other words, you are not defeated until you give up the fight.
You give up the fight by giving up the dream.
Fighting, dreaming, being down on the ground,
confronting reality, that’s what gives meaning to existence…
to the lives, we lead.”
– José Mujica (former President of Uruguay)

New Zealand suicide rate is highest since records began 10 years ago – with 668 people dying by suicide in the past year. It was the fourth year in a row that number has increased. New Zealand also has “one of the world’s worst records for bullying in school”, says Shaun Robinson of the Mental Health Foundations New Zealand.

While more recent efforts have been made to address these issues within communities, the statistics put out by UNICEF tell us that something very serious is being over-looked or hidden. In any culture, country or nation, the youth are our future and therefore the responsibility of all.

Will these young (obviously) sensitive souls who have taken their own lives, awaken people to their own shadow and the shadow wounds of a nation?

The wounded masculine – warrior, aggressive energy – needs the sacred feminine to heal and create a much-needed balance, inner peace, personal self-care and respect, sensitivity to our own and other’s feelings, love, nurturing, compassion, connection and wholeness.

The first step towards healing – is to create better forms of communication and open discussion so that young people can feel safe and supported to express themselves and truly be heard. While suicide is a delicate subject for many people, it should not be closed to discussion and hidden behind shame, self-blame and closed doors.

Are we, the women and men of New Zealand ready to support and encourage these open, supportive, compassionate discussions – after having spent time working on healing and transforming our own shadow?

“Knowing your own darkness is the best method
for dealing with the darknesses of other people.”
– Carl Jung

10974315_652317901560782_621042091874358849_o

WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT EACH SOUL IS HERE FOR, ON EARTH.
LET US NOT JUDGE THE PATH OF OTHERS.


Each soul incarnates and re-incarnates on to earth with different lessons to learn. A soul family and country provides the opportunities and challenges (a foundation – a structure) for these lessons to be offered and it is then the free will choice of each soul to complete and fulfill them.

Even if we do not understand the path a young person chooses – it’s not our place to judge or project onto them from our own unfulfilled dreams, expectations and beliefs about life and our own ego-based “ambitions”.

Unfortunately, too often, the subtle, critical comments
are slipping out unconsciously… It is much easier
to project on to others
rather than become conscious
of our own
unhealed wounds and shadow.

Over time, these comments build up the voice of our “inner critic” – potentially becoming very destructive to a young person’s self-worth and feeling about their own unique identity and path in life.

Let us be conscious of the impact we have on those around us with our words and projections. Let us continue to be devoted to our own inner work and Soul Journey, so that we may offer soul wisdom (gained through our own life experiences), compassion and loving support to others.

Let us be the leader and wise friend we would have loved to know – when we were a young person.

A compassionate and courageous leader knows;
– New paths towards light, compassion and transformation
only come through fully experiencing our inner places of darkness and despair.
– There is immense value in our on-going inner work
(truth-seeking, personal healing, shadow work and self-discovery.)
– Difficulties and challenges viewed from a ‘soul perspective’ help us
to recognise we are each provided with the perfect lessons and opportunities
to grow deeper in love, truth and wisdom on our Soul Journey.

trinity

“The past is not a burden;
it is a scaffold which brought us to this day.
We are free to be who we are –
to create our own life
out of our past and out of the present.
We are our ancestors.
When we can heal ourselves, we also heal our ancestors,
our grandmothers, our grandfathers, and our children.
When we heal ourselves, we heal Mother Earth.”

 – Grandmother Rita Pitka Blumenstein


jmee

Jaymie Elder is a soul journey guide, artist, writer and traveller offering intuitive guidance/Soul Sessions internationally via Skype. Jaymie is dedicated to supporting others to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being. Learn more about Jaymie and her work here.

“I have spent many years, working through
the generational wounds of the men and women in my family.
During this time, I discovered positive characteristics
but also negative beliefs about my self-worth and my capacity
to create an authentic and fulfilling life from my creative and soul gifts.
I see both the shadow and the light portrayed.
My inner work and healing journey continues after 20 years
of being devoted to walking the path of my heart and soul.
I’m grateful I chose my family and New Zealand as my birth country
and for the many opportunities to heal and grow deeper on my Soul Journey.”
– Jaymie Elder


Where is my true path?


“Our true path must come from our own heart and spirit and no one can tell us what that is,…”
– Juerg Dreamturtle

Below, my partner of 15 years, Juerg Dreamturtle shares about the path of our heart and soul – and his book “Sacred Journey” – (video 15mins)



Copyright © Jaymie Elder 2017/19 – Please only use this text unless written permission is received from Jaymie Elder. If you wish to use only some of this text on social media – please do so respectfully by acknowledging Jaymie as the author with links to her website/blog http://www.rainbowtreewoman.com. All photography in this article Copyright © Jaymie Elder / Juerg Dreamturtle 2017/19. Special thank you to Juerg for helping me edit this article.

Please share your feedback in the comments below…Write to me; any questions you may have based on this article, my work or just to say hello 🙂 If you enjoyed this post, please share it, follow my blog or register to receive notifications in your email box for my future posts. Thank you!


More reading from Rainbowtree Woman about the Soul Journey
and the path of healing and transformation: – Click here

Follow Rainbowtree Woman on:
Facebook     Instagram
Email Jaymie: rainbowtreewoman@yahoo.co.nz

The Soul Journey is not about outside appearances

The most adventurous journey to embark on; is the journey to yourself,
the most exciting thing to discover; is who you really are,
the most treasured pieces that you can find; are all the pieces of you,
the most special portrait you can recognize; is the portrait of your soul.
– Unknown

If we only think of ourselves and each other in terms of our dense, physical human bodies and mind, life can be incredibly limiting and somewhat shallow and meaningless.

Mainstream society conditions us to be overly focused on external appearances and short term, superficial goals – looking pretty, material wealth, achieving ego and physical results… all of which means absolutely nothing to the soul.

Get to know the soul being you are…the ancient being inside of you, which is eternal, compassionate, authentic, strong, resilient, patient and wise. The soul knows what it means to be authentic and it has nothing to do with outside appearances.

Soul work will always challenge us to go deeper – to remove our false masks, limiting self-beliefs and above all, be honest and true to ourselves and others.

We cannot really get to know our soul unless we are also prepared to crack open our protective shell and allow the light of truth to illuminate our shadow.

For any readers new to the concept of our “shadow” – it basically means our past wounds or, the lost, vulnerable and broken parts of ourselves longing for love, compassion, forgiveness and conscious awareness. “Everyone carries a shadow,” Carl Jung wrote, “and the less it is embodied in the individual’s conscious life the blacker and denser it is.”

The Journey of the Soul is about having the courage and endurance to continuously face these wounds, heal and embrace the depth of our being – every moment… so that we may continue to grow towards self-awareness, authenticity, compassion and soul wisdom. I have come to learn that authenticity means to be in touch with my own vulnerability and that this is strength, honesty and being true to my heart and soul.

The featured image for this post is a photograph I took of an ancient Holm Oak Tree in the Madonie National Park, Sicily. Every time I am in this Park, I connect with a different tree. Many of the Holm Oaks are between 500 to 800 years old. This tree with its huge crack in the center of the trunk was obviously struck by lightning – perhaps hundreds of years ago!

11

What struck me 🙂 was that although the inner trunk was blackened by the fire and completely hollow,… the tree was still incredibly strong, healthy, huge, majestic and wise.

111

11 (2)

1 (2)

11 (4)

To climb inside the tree and listen to its wisdom was a magical experience. For me, this majestic being is a celebration and reflection of the Journey of the Soul.

11 (3)

All photographs and text Copyright © Jaymie Elder 2017

Please feel free to share this post or browse through my rainbowtreewoman site for more inspiring thoughts about healing and the Journey of the Soul. If you enjoyed this post, please follow my blog or register to receive notifications in your email box for my future posts. If you wish to take some of my text or photos and share them on social media, please do so respectfully by acknowledging myself and my blog: http://www.rainbowtreewoman.com.  Thank you!

Jaymie Elder is a soul journey guide, artist, photographer and traveller offering intuitive guidance/Soul Sessions internationally via Skype. Jaymie is dedicated to supporting others to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being. Learn more about Jaymie and her work here.


My soul connection with Claude Monet and my Grandmother – by Jaymie Elder

UPDATE 16.07.2020: On Monday 13th July 2020, my Grandmother peacefully transitioned to her beautiful garden in spirit… Thank you to my Mum and Dad, Aunties and Uncles for everything they did to support and comfort her, over the past few months.
“Forever Gardening”…

 

Many of us feel a deep connection to Artists who have influenced and inspired humanity throughout history.

Ever since I began journeying with Juerg 12 years ago, we have practised being open to allow our intuition to guide us to places and people, which resonate with our heart and soul. During several campervan journeys in France, Juerg and I had the opportunity to connect with many of the great Impressionist Painters – in particular, Claude Monet. These connections happened spontaneously over a period of about 2 months. It felt like we were guided to many locations, which were important for his life and work.

Impressionism developed in Paris in the 1860s. Its influence spread throughout Europe and eventually the United States. The Impressionist Artists rejected the fine finish and detail to which most artists of their day aspired. Instead, they aimed to capture the momentary, sensory effect of a scene – the effects of light, the passage of time, changes in weather and other shifts in the atmosphere. To achieve these effects, many Impressionist Artists moved away from the studio to the streets and countryside, painting en plein air (outdoors).

Many consider Claude Monet to be the founding Father of Impressionism. The term Impressionism derived from a painting by Claude Monet – a view of the port of Le Havre in the mist – “Impression, Sunrise” 1872.

claude_monet_-_impression_sunrise_1872_impressionism_48x63cm_small“Impression, Sunrise” 1872, Musee Marmottan Monet

“During dawn, day, dusk, and dark and from varying viewpoints, some from the water itself and others from a hotel room looking down over the port….They asked me for a title for the catalogue, it couldn’t really be taken for a view of Le Havre, and I said: ‘Put Impression.” – Claude Monet

As from my early teens, Claude Monet’s tranquil garden and beautiful paintings have fascinated me. This was thanks to the influence and admiration of his work by my Grandmother who is a well-known artist and gardener in New Zealand – now over 90 years old.

For a long time, it has been a dream of mine to visit Claude Monet’s home and garden in Giverny, France. Two years ago, this dream became a reality.

1 (3)Monet’s Lilly Pond, Giverny, France, June 2015

While visiting Monet’s home and garden and travelling along the Normandy Coast to many of the places where he lived and painted – I felt a connection to my grandmother, far greater and more powerful than I have ever experienced in my life. (Physically, I was 19,159km away from her!)

The relationship I have with my Grandmother has enabled me to experience the depth and magic of an energetic, spiritual connection, which transcends time, distance and space.

*      *      *

Journey to the Birth Place of Impressionism – Normandy Coast


After visiting Claude Monet’s beautiful garden in Giverny, Juerg and I spent 3 weeks travelling the Normandy Coast in our campervan. Monet grew up in the major port city of Le Havre. The sea was a constant background of his whole childhood, and it is said that he spent more time roaming the beaches than in the classroom.

“It was at home I learned the little I know. Schools always appeared to me like a prison, and never could I make up my mind to stay there, not even for four hours a day, when the sunshine was inviting, the sea smooth, and when it was joy to run about the cliffs in the free air, or to paddle in the water.” – Claude Monet

During the 1880s, Monet rediscovered the Normandy coast and made repeated visits there to draw by the sea. He was attracted to the dramatic cliffs and unique rock arches.

One of my most memorable experiences on the Normandy Coast happened only thanks to an argument I had with Juerg! (everything happens for a reason!…) 😊 Feeling emotional and annoyed, I went for what turned out to be an inspiring and magical walk on my own. Within about half an hour of walking, I found myself on top of a huge cliff overlooking an historic church and a beautiful, wild ocean scene.

On my walk, I was surprised to find signposts describing details about the early years of Monet’s life spent on the Normandy Coast, as well as displaying several paintings he created of the ocean and coastal scenery. Monet created close to 100 paintings along this coastal area and often he would return numerous times to the same scene, until a painting was completed.

My tranquil walk offered a beautiful and intimate soul connection with a man both myself and my Grandmother were so inspired by. Standing alone on top of the cliff, with no one else around, I experienced a timeless and expansive sense of the feelings and emotions, which Monet had captured in so many of his paintings.

Cliff-Walk-at-Pourville-monet-1024x772“Cliff walk at Pourville.” 1882. Art Institute of Chicago.

When I finally returned to our campervan, I wanted to surprise Juerg. I suggested he follow me on the walk to experience what I had discovered in a similar, spontaneous way.

Together, we followed another path past a small herd of content goats and down towards the beach. We found more signposts displaying paintings, which Monet had created of the beautiful coastal scenery we were witnessing.

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

What followed this experience, was more fluid moments of synchronicity as we “happened” to arrive in many special places, scenes, and villages where Monet had produced some of his earliest impressionist paintings.

Rapid brushwork and vibrant colours display images of sky, cliffs, sea and beach, which have become some of the most memorable and popular images in Impressionist art.

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

Night-spot at Fecamp, Normandy Coast, June 2015

“Staying in Fecamp in 1881, Monet brought back 22 canvases, capturing sometimes the cliff tops, sometimes the sea. The beach is deserted, with not a human figure in sight, giving way to a scattering of rocks that disappear into the waves frothing at the shore. Painted using large, vertical brushstrokes, the cliff top is saturated with light from the sky and sea, composed of yellows, blues, and oranges. In the distance, the bolder green hue of the deep water sets off the sparkling line of the horizon.” (Information found at the site where Monet Painted -“Fecamp, Bord de Mer.”)

Later, our journey lead us to the Art Museum Le Havre, which houses major Impressionist paintings from such artists as Claude Monet, Auguste Renoir, Alfred Sisley, Camille Pisarro and Eugene Boudin. Museum Le Havre is known as France’s best museum of Impressionist paintings after the Musée d’Orsay in Paris.

1monetfecamp“Fecamp, Bord de Mer” 1881, Museum Le Havre.

The whole experience of many spontaneous, synchronistic and magical moments made me feel as if my Grandmother and Monet were there with me and guiding us on our journey. I gained a much deeper appreciation for the beauty of his work – especially the colour and light he portrayed based on the landscapes he knew so well. Monet was fascinated with the changing effects of light in nature.

“For me, a landscape does not exist in its own right, since its appearance changes at every moment; but the surrounding atmosphere brings it to life – the light and the air which vary continually. For me, it is only the surrounding atmosphere, which gives subjects their true value.” – Claude Monet

*      *      *

More than a Grandmother…


grandmaMy Grandmother – Joan Elder – in her Garden in New Zealand (several years ago now).

Growing up in New Zealand, I was very inspired my Grandmother’s passion for painting. My Grandmother loved to be outdoors – painting or sketching in nature. Some of her subjects included rural farm scenery with early pioneer cottages from our region. More often, she painted plants, flowers, trees, pathways and picturesque, tranquil scenes from her own garden. Sometimes, we went on painting and drawing excursions together. However, it was only after my experiences in France that I began to appreciate why my Grandmother was inspired all her life by the work of Claude Monet – both his paintings and amazing garden.

Throughout my life and especially in my early 20’s, I cherished the company of my grandmother in the sanctuary of her garden. Her beautiful garden was well known and often visited by garden enthusiasts from both New Zealand and overseas.

There were many times that I felt she was the only person in the world who would truly listen. She was not only a grandmother, but a wise friend and honest, sincere companion. My grandmother and I shared many magical times together and I remember always leaving her garden with a bunch of beautiful flowers, herbs and a lighter, brighter feeling in my heart.

Looking back, I know it was her devotion, humility and gratitude for the small things, which made her simple life connected to nature so rich, self-sustaining and rewarding.

My grandmother always told me to follow my heart and that it did not matter what anyone thought of the decisions and choices I made. She helped me to see that many people may not understand my journey, but the most important was that I was happy with my choices and true to my heart.

1 (21)Rhododedron’s, My Grandmother’s Garden

During my life away from New Zealand, I would often phone my grandmother and she would say to me, “Jaymie, I’ve just been thinking of you!”. She would also say this whenever a letter arrived in her mailbox from me. When I call her on the phone from Europe, she always says that I sound so close, like I am in her next bedroom. 🙂 Today, I may not be in contact with her as much as I would like to, but I know and feel that when I am thinking of her, she is feeling it and likewise thinking of me too.

spiderwebcolour“Web of Light – Spider Web in the Sunlight” Pyrenees, France 2014

*      *      *

We are infinite, spiritual beings


We are infinite, multi-dimensional beings experiencing life though a physical earth-form. When we fully embrace our spiritual being, we know and feel we are NOT limited by time, space or our physical bodies. When we think of someone, we feel love in our heart chakra and this energy instantly reaches the soul of the person we are connecting with.

In my early twenties, I learnt about distance and energy healing through Reiki courses. However, it is only now thanks to my own experiences and journey, that I understand what this means on a much deeper level. There is so much more to our being and our world, which we do not see with our eyes and cannot grasp with our limited human understanding.

For the past 16 years, I have been on a journey to reclaim and heal the part of myself, which I call my innocent child. She is the free spirit within me that was and still is very connected to Nature. My innocent child believes, feels and sees magic and wonder – all around her. It is through her that I experience a world interconnected by a divine, creative force.

jmeMe, 9 years old “Gypsie Fortune Teller” (“Book Character Day” at my primary school)

I am grateful for the teachers in my life (my grandmother, Juerg) and many others who have helped me on this journey of reclaiming, healing, learning and growing. I have realised on my journey that sometimes a soul family member can help us the most by NOT “being there” for us, either physically or emotionally. This is because we are then forced to dig deeper within ourselves to understand the true origin of our pain and longing. It is through our inner work of healing, understanding and personal growth we can connect more deeply with our spiritual essence, our true self, and the love and wisdom in all of creation.

At some stage, we come to realise it is “thanks” to the people who “left” and “hurt” us that we have embarked on the journey to reconnect with the deepest part of ourselves – our soul, spirit being and our true, creative and divine purpose.

“It is on the strength of observation and reflection, that one finds a way. So, we must dig and delve unceasingly.” – Claude Monet

waterlillies_jaymieMonet’s Lillie pond, Giverny, France June 2015

*      *      *

Claude Monet – Final years – 1916-26


In Monet’s final years, he increasingly suffered from cataracts. He was often fearful of becoming completely blind. It became harder for him to work outside, so instead he built a large studio on his property in Giverny and began to paint the vast, abstract canvases known as “The Grand Decorations”. These masterpieces are 91 meters long (almost 300 feet long). They are two meters high, which is as high as Monet could paint when he stood. Two rooms were eventually necessary to accommodate them and they took him close to 10 years to complete.

Claude-Monet-Photography-of-the-artist-Photo-Credits-Kids-EncyclopediaMonet standing next to his work “The Grand Decorations”

“Monet reversed the laws of the universe, a new way of seeing the world, the infinitely small and the infinitely large, the boundless depth and space of the earth reflected in a pond with only his brush and remembered light and colour.” (“Monet’s Garden in Giverny, inventing the landscape.”)

Monet died of lung cancer on 5 December 1926, at the age of 86. Monet’s home, garden, and waterlily pond were bequeathed by his son Michel, his only heir, to the French Academy of Fine Arts in 1966.

Through the Fondation Claude Monet, the house and gardens were opened for visits in 1980, following restoration. The house and garden, along with the Museum of Impressionism, are major attractions in Giverny, which hosts some 500 000 visitors each year during the open season of seven months.

DSCF0817Entrance to Monet’s Home, Giverny, France (June 2015)

My soul connection with my grandmother and Monet will continue to inspire me on my journey. One day, I would love to visit the massive Impressionist paintings of waterlilies, known as the Grand Decorations, in the Musée de l’Orangerie in Paris. Time will tell if this dream will become a reality!

The purpose of this post is not only to share my experiences of connection between Claude Monet and my Grandmother. I wish to encourage others to dream, open, be inspired and follow their own soul guidance, especially if that means reconnecting with an Artist, Writer, Actor, Musician, Philosopher (or any person who has made a positive and profound impact on humanities consciousness). Any time we feel real love or passion for an Artist, there is something important trying to be made conscious in regards to our own soul journey.

“Everyone discusses my art and pretends to understand, as if it were necessary to understand, when it is simply necessary to love.” – Claude Monet

apc“Matin” *troisième panneau* (“Morning” *third Panel*) Claude Monet 1920-26 Musée de l’Orangerie, Paris

(Photographs featured in this post – Copyright © Jaymie Elder and Juerg Dreamturtle 2017)


Jaymie Elder is a soul journey guide, artist, photographer and traveller offering intuitive guidance/sessions internationally via Skype. Jaymie is dedicated to supporting others to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being. Learn more about Jaymie and her work here.

If you enjoyed this post, please follow my blog or register to receive notifications in your email box for my future posts. Thank you!

Only your heart and soul can guide you to the truth.

Do not believe anything because it is said by an authority,
or if it is said to come from angels,
or from Gods, or from an inspired source.
Believe it only if you have explored it in your own heart
and mind and body and found it to be true.
Work out your own path, through diligence.

~Gautama Buddha

*

Too often, we accept information presented to us as the truth, with no effort to ask any honest, critical, or introspective questions. We’ve become so blinded by outer “nicely packaged” forms of deception – especially, by people we see as having authority, power or “more knowledge” than us.

In the age of information, we are increasingly impatient. Our impatience will lead us away from the truth – every time. Our inability to sit with the discomfort and challenge of “not knowing” will prevent us from any real discernment – and the clarity and perceptiveness of our heart/soul knowing. Our fear of rejection from others will keep us bound to comfortable yet restricted ways of viewing ourselves, each-other and the world.

finaltruthsigAre we open for the truth?… “Truth” © Copyright Jaymie Elder 2014

When presented with new information about any person or any subject, drop into your feeling heart space…how does it feel in your solar plexus (stomach area)?

What does your heart say to you?

If something I read or see in a person does not feel right to me, I try to sit with the discomfort and inner conflict… I believe this is an internal space, we all need to feel, with patience, humility and finally relinquishing our need to “know”, to be right or be in control.

When I have questions about any person or subject, I ask my soul being for answers. I practice allowing the wisdom of my heart to guide me. I trust and know these answers can be revealed to me in many different and sometimes completely irrational ways, i.e. through reading an article (which pops up unexpectedly, but in perfect synchronicity while browsing online) or sharing a conversation with a stranger, friend, a child, an animal, mountain, rock, plant or tree.

Because I believe that a spirit moves through all of life, I know that ALL beings can be my teacher (if I am willing and open to listen). Of course, this is nothing revolutionary. It is a return to the ancient feminine way of the right brain, feeling, intuitive or yin-being. It is the power of the feminine principal, which indigenous people and shamanic cultures around the world have practiced daily as a deeply interconnected and balanced way of life.

Above all, I have learned that being able to see and feel the truth in people and in the world, is an internal process of removing the veils of illusion in myself first (i.e. my past wounded beliefs, patterns and projections on to others, which I may cling too, out of fear and a need for control to feel safe and “accepted”). I also try to allow space for new information to come in because I do not agree with staying “fixed” or inflexible to soul growth and expansion.

I feel grateful to be journeying with a partner who challenges me, every day, to see and feel the truth both in myself, in people and in the world. Juerg is not afraid to call out my (or his own) shadow – false illusions, beliefs and self-deceptions. In doing so, we both offer each other the immense opportunity to grow from a limited human understanding – to see and feel more clearly and deeper from our feeling heart and infinite soul being.

15781715_10154618116516049_4592461852636632958_n

 

“The great enemy of truth is very often not the lie – deliberate, contrived and dishonest – but the myth – persistent, persuasive and unrealistic. Too often we hold fast to the clichés of our forebears. We subject all facts to a prefabricated set of interpretations. We enjoy the comfort of opinion without the discomfort of thought.” – John F. Kennedy


Copyright © 2017/2021 Jaymie Elder


If you enjoyed this post, please follow my blog or register to receive notifications in your email box for my future posts. If you wish to take some of my text and share it on social media, please do so respectfully by acknowledging myself and my blog: http://www.rainbowtreewoman.com.  Thank you!

Jaymie Elder is a soul journey guide, artist, photographer and traveler offering intuitive guidance/Soul Sessions internationally. Jaymie is dedicated to supporting others to heal and grow towards their authentic self – and a life in harmony with their heart and soul being.
Learn more about Jaymie and her work here.

A special gift and message, from the oldest tree in Europe – “Castagne dei Cento Cavalli”.

800px-castagno_dei_cento_cavalli_-_jean-pierre_houel

“Castagno dei Cento Cavalli” – Jean-Pierre Houël (1776-1779)

*Post originally created in Jan 2017, updated 30 Jan 2020*

Known as the 100 Horse Chestnut Tree, (“Castagne de Cento Cavalli”), the ancient tree is considered to be between 2000 and 4000 years old. It is the oldest tree in Europe and the oldest Chestnut Tree in the world. The Tree lives on Mount Etna in Sicily, which is the most active volcano in Europe. The Tree has survived several earthquakes, (which have devastated cities along the east coast of the Island), volcanic eruptions, as well as seen the rise and fall of numerous ancient cultures, over thousands of years.

The name “Castagno de cento Cavalli” (Chestnut Tree of 100 horses) derives from a traditional story in which a queen of Aragon and her company of one hundred knights, during a trip to Mount Etna, were caught in a severe thunderstorm. The Queen and her horsemen all took shelter under the tree.

We visited the tree in winter, just as spring was about to arrive in Sicily. The advantage of this was to see the structure of the ancient trunk and the beauty of the trees form because there was no foliage. After the mystical events that played out over the course of our visit to the tree, (more information to follow) we returned to the tree at a full moon. For me, this was the most memorable, sacred time I spent alone with the ancient tree being.

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

The following beautiful text (translated from Italian) was taken from a sign, located at the foot of the Chestnut Tree:

Monument Messenger of the Culture of Peace.

Throughout the centuries, the tree has been a favorite destination of men and women of all backgrounds. The tree has brought these people together by their common desire to experience pristine nature, the potential inspirer of superhuman and eternal messages and the means by which we discover the absolute within each of us. Next to this tree, all find harmony with nature and peace with one another and the universe. The passions and anguish within the soul relax as it finds equilibrium and the body finds its well-being.
The site was cherished by visitors in the 18th and 19th centuries for its wild and overgrown appearance, which evoked in their minds the idea of the tree as a symbol of fertility. The chestnut vividly demonstrates the generative power and fecundity of nature. The tree is renowned as a symbol of life force. Around its trunk, it attracts lovers from around the world. Thus, the dialogue between man and nature becomes permanent and infinite, an endless union that brings together the richness and fertility of the tree with the industrious of man. Various rituals and legends are associated with the thousand-year-old chestnut. One fascinating myth tells of a queen named Giovanna, beloved by her retinue of one hundred knights, who all took refuge with her one stormy night under the boughs of this majestic tree.

*    *    *

A Message for the Soul


“When I create my music, I feel like an instrument of nature.
I wonder what delight nature must feel when we open our hearts
and express our God-given talents….

the sound of approval arose across the universe
and the whole world abounds in magic, wonder fills our hearts
for what we have glimpsed for an instant,
the playfulness of life…”
Michael Jackson

*    *    *

There is a harmony, a rhythm in all of creation, which we are a part of. Every moment, miracles happen before our very eyes, yet we have been programmed to dull our senses and walk through life blindfolded.

The playfulness of life flows through the transparent heart of our inner child.

However, for many of us, this vulnerable child has been forgotten, abandoned, neglected, rejected and deeply hurt. We must commit ourselves to heal our past wounds and reconnect with our inner child who longs for our recognition, love, and compassion.

As we progress on this Soul Journey and heal our inner child (children), we become more open to feel and see the magic and wonder, which surrounds us.

We open ourselves more to receive the love and divine guidance of our spirit helpers – in the form of angels, spirit and animal guides or our many ancestors who all walk beside us.

We become more present to each moment and conscious of how we can be of service to humanity, all of life and Mother Earth – through simply being our authentic self, honoring and sharing our soul gifts, talents and strengths.

img_0084

“Cento Cavalli” A newborn, abandoned puppy I found under the 100 Horse Chestnut Tree.
Juerg and I are taking care of Cento Cavalli and after 10 days, he is doing very well.
We named him “Cento Cavalli” or “Cento” to honour the magnificent, ancient tree he was born and found under.
We also believed this name would give him the strength, trust, and resilience he needed – considering he was left without a mother at such a tender, early stage of his life.

UPDATE 30.01.2020: Cento Cavalli has recently celebrated his 3 year anniversary with us. We feel very blessed to have him with us on our journey. We know that the way he came into our lives was very magical and that he is an ancient teacher of the playfulness in life! Cento teaches us to slow down, be in the moment and to always make time to laugh, create simple fun and play together! In October 2019 we returned to the Castagne tree where we found Cento. The time spent there was a wonderful and magical point of reflection on our journey together over 3 years.

centohug
Receiving a “Cento hug” 🙂


If you enjoyed this post, please follow my blog or register to receive notifications in your email box for my future posts. Thank you!

Copyright © 2016/2020 Jaymie Elder

Web of Light

Life is a mystery.
Much of it is unseen.
Much of it is waiting for us,
in the unknown.

Let us go into the mystery,
the unknown places within ourselves.
Let us shine a light
of our own awareness and love there.

Let us discover and see value,
in the many colours
and diverse rhythms
of our own Soul.

A Sacred Journey,
unique and special
– to each one of us.

Copyright © Jaymie Elder 2016


Continue reading